Wow! I give thanks for meeting someone else who can find good things to say about the weather, can remember the sunny periods and think of the bright sides of many showers/storms in between them...who also says 'Well to be fair we had a great winter...' It was the taxi driver who brought me home yesterday. We were both totally astonished! For me the constant rain between appointments was ideal as I really needed to spend a l-o-n-g time in Specsavers choosing frames. It's so hard to find ones I think suit me but I THINK I've found a couple of styles I like for distance and distant sunlight. On spesh with an NHS voucher and my Simply Health cashback I'll have change from a tenner for the two! I give great thanks for all of the above!
I also give thanks for great acupuncture that set me up for cooking a big pan of restorative red lentil stew packed full of fresh picked (at the greengrocer's!) goodies. That book I've just read really reminded my how much rubbish I eat and how much I enjoy simple wholesome food. If I could afford a 'member of staff' I'd have a chef! Of course some people marry sometime willing to cook for them and trade favours....might be up for that, haha!
Gratitude for discovering the existence of baby doll sheep. Look them up...they're like teddy bears with hooves. I'm immune to the charms of many miniature animals but these were bred not to be delightful to the eye but to feed a family with no wastage. Personally I think eating lamb is close to eating kitten, and I haven't a lawn for a couple to graze so I reckon they'll have to go on the silly list along with a chef or a husband...
Gratitude too for a good night's sleep, for waking early enough for the things that had to be done...the trick now being to stay awake for things I'd like to do!
Dot, dot, dot...I did! I went out for NO good reason...woohoo! Well, there were reasons but none of them medical or in any form health related, or urgent in any other way. I went to get some things from some shops and I got the things and am grateful for being able to do so on many, many levels. But the best thing of all, was a thing that was free...feeling the wind blowing my hair about. Absolutely blooming priceless! Good job too really, as now I'm home I don't actually have the energy to unpack my bags!
Friday, 13 July 2012
Thursday, 12 July 2012
Drug of choice
I give thanks for red dogs - for Megan the liver and white drug sniffer spaniel at Gatwick with the waggiest tail stump (no, I don't give thanks for the docking and yes, I only know her from TV!) I know they've been talking about having sniffer bees but bees are not as obviously cute and characterful, are they? And yay! Red Dog the movie is available on Sky Store! Jared and I were talking about how watching a film on your own seems a waste but if I wait til I have someone to watch one with I see none at all! And that's not good...a good film is my 'drug of choice'!
You have to be careful with choosing 'cute' though don't you? There's a poem going round the internet written by, or in the voice, of an old hospital bound man asking people to remember all the stages in life he'd been through to get there. Sometimes it's hard but it's a important realise how much you don't see, how much even the most 'ordinary' of lives will have hidden depths. On Come Dine With Me the other night a young female executive dismissed an older woman, less interested in the superficial, as a 'librarian' (apologies to librarians - it was her being dismissive, not me!)...anyway, young one nearly fell into her dessert when she realised older one was a qualified pilot! You know, sometimes if you're at the librarian end of life it's worth remembering that all young bright and beautiful things become old one day...if they're lucky!
I give thanks that I feel up to getting up and outdoors (slowly) today as I have to go to the doc's for bloods (at lunchtime) and then a little later I have acupuncture which I hope will restore me further after shopping and chores. I reckon anything that can alter your body chemistry so drastically you need bloods done after a week to check that it's not doing more harm than good could possibly affect the way you feel physically, don't you? Anyway I seem to be adjusting now...though I give thanks for all the rain so I can treat myself to cabs both ways...
I give thanks for the the different sizes of raindrops on my window pane. It's hard to get a photo of this with my cheapy set up I find, but I shall keep persevering. This is the best I've managed so far...
I give thanks for the way sometimes you can't turn off your thoughts and meditate but you come up with a bright idea instead! Anyway, no time for bright ideas now if I'm not going to go out in my pjs. Apologies to people I've not replied to...Carol, Bob and Ivor...later if I'm still awake!
You have to be careful with choosing 'cute' though don't you? There's a poem going round the internet written by, or in the voice, of an old hospital bound man asking people to remember all the stages in life he'd been through to get there. Sometimes it's hard but it's a important realise how much you don't see, how much even the most 'ordinary' of lives will have hidden depths. On Come Dine With Me the other night a young female executive dismissed an older woman, less interested in the superficial, as a 'librarian' (apologies to librarians - it was her being dismissive, not me!)...anyway, young one nearly fell into her dessert when she realised older one was a qualified pilot! You know, sometimes if you're at the librarian end of life it's worth remembering that all young bright and beautiful things become old one day...if they're lucky!
I give thanks that I feel up to getting up and outdoors (slowly) today as I have to go to the doc's for bloods (at lunchtime) and then a little later I have acupuncture which I hope will restore me further after shopping and chores. I reckon anything that can alter your body chemistry so drastically you need bloods done after a week to check that it's not doing more harm than good could possibly affect the way you feel physically, don't you? Anyway I seem to be adjusting now...though I give thanks for all the rain so I can treat myself to cabs both ways...
I give thanks for the the different sizes of raindrops on my window pane. It's hard to get a photo of this with my cheapy set up I find, but I shall keep persevering. This is the best I've managed so far...
I give thanks for the way sometimes you can't turn off your thoughts and meditate but you come up with a bright idea instead! Anyway, no time for bright ideas now if I'm not going to go out in my pjs. Apologies to people I've not replied to...Carol, Bob and Ivor...later if I'm still awake!
Wednesday, 11 July 2012
Magically transformed
Well I'm feeling a bit better for fasting and resting. I've even got dressed in a slippy sloppy duvet day sort of way and been down to check the post. I can't think of ever being so pole axed before without an obvious cause. It's on a par with flu, chemo and acute renal failure...but a lot of the time I haven't actually felt particularly ill (for which I'm extremely grateful) just non functioning. My money's still on the meds...
Anyway, I give thanks for the peacefulness to recover, for the weather not being reliably good so I don't feel I'm missing out on anything, though its changes have been entertaining me. I'd been planning to spring into all sorts of action when the tennis finished so I'm grateful that none of it was urgently required. Even thinking about knitting, sewing and crochet seems far too energetic, let alone anything you don't sit down for! I'm grateful for the book mentioned yesterday. It's a novel by Paul Theroux (Louis' dad) and wasn't at all what I thought it was when I started. I've mostly read his travel books before starting with the Great Railway Bazaar when I was a young girl...this is about a magician but about other things too including eating good food. And even though I've had no appetite I've thought I might find one if someone provided some plain and simple home cooked things...so when I get off my butt maybe I'll do myself the favour. In the meantime great thanks for a plain oatcake! Also for, black rooibosch tea which is forever now associated in my mind with Mercy who nursed me so wonderfully on the ITU and whose 'therapy' included tracking down my bags and the tea bags within so I could move on from sips of water...
I give thanks for the kind of daytime TV that makes you grateful you're not one of the people on it - even those spending loads of dosh! And for ebay...and all the great people supplying the little things I want or need that don't cost much. A new charger lead for my Streak today...woohoo!
Anyway, I give thanks for the peacefulness to recover, for the weather not being reliably good so I don't feel I'm missing out on anything, though its changes have been entertaining me. I'd been planning to spring into all sorts of action when the tennis finished so I'm grateful that none of it was urgently required. Even thinking about knitting, sewing and crochet seems far too energetic, let alone anything you don't sit down for! I'm grateful for the book mentioned yesterday. It's a novel by Paul Theroux (Louis' dad) and wasn't at all what I thought it was when I started. I've mostly read his travel books before starting with the Great Railway Bazaar when I was a young girl...this is about a magician but about other things too including eating good food. And even though I've had no appetite I've thought I might find one if someone provided some plain and simple home cooked things...so when I get off my butt maybe I'll do myself the favour. In the meantime great thanks for a plain oatcake! Also for, black rooibosch tea which is forever now associated in my mind with Mercy who nursed me so wonderfully on the ITU and whose 'therapy' included tracking down my bags and the tea bags within so I could move on from sips of water...
I give thanks for the kind of daytime TV that makes you grateful you're not one of the people on it - even those spending loads of dosh! And for ebay...and all the great people supplying the little things I want or need that don't cost much. A new charger lead for my Streak today...woohoo!
Tuesday, 10 July 2012
Those were the doze
I give thanks for a comfy bed, a good book, for running water and sewage drainage...pretty much all I've needed today...
For the shifting patterns of clouds, sky and light glimpsed through my window...
To Jared for treating me to a lush veggie pizza to takeaway somewhere with a beautiful view yesterday evening. I thought this might help me to eat... and it did but after two or three slices I looked down and realised I'd only eaten one! I was full up already. I was so tired I went straight to bed when he left, propping myself as upright as I could to sleep without falling over so I didn't feel so nauseous...and gradually late this afternoon after much napping I felt ready to move. Not far...only to the sofa to write this. I'm grateful I don't feel sick any more but I still have no appetite and only fancy drinking water so far. I thought I might have a shower and get dressed but it's so snuggly lying here under the throw I'm not sure that I shall. I'm fine really and very grateful for the opportunity to take things even easier than my normal current slow pace as clearly that's what needed right now.
For the shifting patterns of clouds, sky and light glimpsed through my window...
To Jared for treating me to a lush veggie pizza to takeaway somewhere with a beautiful view yesterday evening. I thought this might help me to eat... and it did but after two or three slices I looked down and realised I'd only eaten one! I was full up already. I was so tired I went straight to bed when he left, propping myself as upright as I could to sleep without falling over so I didn't feel so nauseous...and gradually late this afternoon after much napping I felt ready to move. Not far...only to the sofa to write this. I'm grateful I don't feel sick any more but I still have no appetite and only fancy drinking water so far. I thought I might have a shower and get dressed but it's so snuggly lying here under the throw I'm not sure that I shall. I'm fine really and very grateful for the opportunity to take things even easier than my normal current slow pace as clearly that's what needed right now.
Monday, 9 July 2012
Smart move
I give thanks for a gap in the cloud that seems to have been wandering the country the last few days. We had it here yesterday and I saw from the TV that it hovered over Silverstone and Wimbledon now and then, and from virtual friends that it's been seen elsewhere... I give thanks for all the weekends it enhanced.... but also for the sporting sight of umbrellas bobbing up and down in salute when outdoor spectators realise their image is on screens around the world...and the thundering sound of heavy rain on the Centre Court roof! I give great thanks for Andy Murray sharing his emotions so movingly after the match. I've often thought he doesn't come across well in interviews but after his match defeat, he was so gracious and charming.
I give thanks for being able to be useful by doing some mending on the sewing machine for Clive, and to him for undertaking various tasks about the place including frying the fatted pig for for our lunch...two chunky sausage sarnies were enough of a meal to last me most of the day. Perhaps I should consider becoming a full time carnivore to save on cooking? Nah, once in a blue moon suits me best and the piggies I'm sure!
I'm still struggling with what I think must be side effects from the new medication as they start a few hours after taking it last thing at night. As I usually feel pretty groggy in the mornings anyway it seems best to deal with it all at once and I usually perk up by the late afternoon. I suppose I could start taking them in the morning to see if I feel worse later but I'd rather not and I'm hoping the problems will wear off in a few days anyway...meanwhile I'm grateful that my body is aware of chemical changes and alerting me. I think I get a gold star for gratitude for coming up with that one, ha ha! I also give thanks that no one's relying on me to do anything but look after myself...
Plan A when I don't feel well is to stay in bed and wait for someone to come and pat me...so I'm grateful for plan B which is to get stuck into something physical and see if I can work through it! I've done a bit of sanding where I've filled around the newly exposed bit of skirting board and wall underneath the bedroom window. I dug out two wall plugs where the heater was that hid this area and vacuumed up the debris...and I think that might be it for the day though as I'm now flattened on the sofa without the energy to lift my laptop. I give thanks for smart phones, definitely!
I give thanks for being able to be useful by doing some mending on the sewing machine for Clive, and to him for undertaking various tasks about the place including frying the fatted pig for for our lunch...two chunky sausage sarnies were enough of a meal to last me most of the day. Perhaps I should consider becoming a full time carnivore to save on cooking? Nah, once in a blue moon suits me best and the piggies I'm sure!
I'm still struggling with what I think must be side effects from the new medication as they start a few hours after taking it last thing at night. As I usually feel pretty groggy in the mornings anyway it seems best to deal with it all at once and I usually perk up by the late afternoon. I suppose I could start taking them in the morning to see if I feel worse later but I'd rather not and I'm hoping the problems will wear off in a few days anyway...meanwhile I'm grateful that my body is aware of chemical changes and alerting me. I think I get a gold star for gratitude for coming up with that one, ha ha! I also give thanks that no one's relying on me to do anything but look after myself...
Plan A when I don't feel well is to stay in bed and wait for someone to come and pat me...so I'm grateful for plan B which is to get stuck into something physical and see if I can work through it! I've done a bit of sanding where I've filled around the newly exposed bit of skirting board and wall underneath the bedroom window. I dug out two wall plugs where the heater was that hid this area and vacuumed up the debris...and I think that might be it for the day though as I'm now flattened on the sofa without the energy to lift my laptop. I give thanks for smart phones, definitely!
Sunday, 8 July 2012
Thankyouautocorrect.com
I'm grateful that although I didn't feel well in the night again I managed to get back to sleep in the end.
It might be the new medication...I'm grateful they're trying to save my kidney with it but I've got to have a blood test next week to check it's not making things worse...I'm grateful they're doing that too ha ha!
I'm grateful for an astonishingly bright warm sunny morning...and for a giant rainbow in my path to the kitchen from the crystal in the living room window...
I'm grateful that Clive's coming over soon as it'll make me get myself up and dressed...and that he's someone who won't mind if I haven't brushed my hair...and that my phone just suggested 'haha' for 'hair' because whatever you think a 'haha' might be the idea of brushing it makes you smile!
I'm grateful I found this to keep you all busy and informed when I'm in a hurry to write my post...http://www.bbc.co.uk/blogs/magazinemonitor/10_things/
It might be the new medication...I'm grateful they're trying to save my kidney with it but I've got to have a blood test next week to check it's not making things worse...I'm grateful they're doing that too ha ha!
I'm grateful for an astonishingly bright warm sunny morning...and for a giant rainbow in my path to the kitchen from the crystal in the living room window...
I'm grateful that Clive's coming over soon as it'll make me get myself up and dressed...and that he's someone who won't mind if I haven't brushed my hair...and that my phone just suggested 'haha' for 'hair' because whatever you think a 'haha' might be the idea of brushing it makes you smile!
I'm grateful I found this to keep you all busy and informed when I'm in a hurry to write my post...http://www.bbc.co.uk/blogs/magazinemonitor/10_things/
Saturday, 7 July 2012
Good heavens!
Fond as I am of Jo-Wilfred I give thanks that Andy won his semi as it seemed to me he needed to more...and it would please all our patriotic sports fans too. He is not expected to win the final with Roger, on his own emotional mission and on such form, so what a great position for him to face the match in knowing that if he loses people will be still be pleased and proud of him! Being a British tennis player is often a pretty thankless role I think as you become the target of all that pent up national negativity. I'm also grateful that the match didn't start til 4...on behalf of a certain Miss Edwards who couldn't leave work til half past 3...and that as we hadn't communicated for so long, tournament chat was an easy opener!
I give thanks for being someone who enjoys the sound of rain and wind. I only recently realised that some people don't. It's hard to imagine liking something you don't take pleasure from and vice versa isn't it? One of the more innocent reasons we ostracise or turn upon the 'other'. Which reminds me (I wonder why?) of the excellent Strictly Kosher documentaries I caught up with the other day...much thanks for the way they transferred a sense of community and belonging and love. Which also reminds me of a fascinating list I came across, of differing beliefs regarding heaven and hell. It was quite a long list...but just covering sects and churches within Christianity! I give thanks for the eye opener but I did find it rather sad since I'm pretty sure they don't all get together and exchange views and say 'How fascinating!'... Spiritual beings having a human experience, eh? Gotta love them for trying...'heaven' knows it's hard!
I give thanks to Laura for painting my bedroom door. It is a VERY dark cream, you'll not be surprised to hear knowing how much blue there was in the tin. A creamy toffee/coffee colour actually...very pleasant actually even if not plan A! I give thanks again to Mark the stoma for being so reassuring and encouraging and making me feel like we are on a voyage of discovery together (rather than I keep falling overboard) as while Laura was shut in the bedroom with a paintbrush I had a sudden need for clean clothes. I'm grateful there was laundry on the rack in the kitchen as though it was damper than I would have preferred it was dryer than what I'd taken off!
I give thanks for being someone who enjoys the sound of rain and wind. I only recently realised that some people don't. It's hard to imagine liking something you don't take pleasure from and vice versa isn't it? One of the more innocent reasons we ostracise or turn upon the 'other'. Which reminds me (I wonder why?) of the excellent Strictly Kosher documentaries I caught up with the other day...much thanks for the way they transferred a sense of community and belonging and love. Which also reminds me of a fascinating list I came across, of differing beliefs regarding heaven and hell. It was quite a long list...but just covering sects and churches within Christianity! I give thanks for the eye opener but I did find it rather sad since I'm pretty sure they don't all get together and exchange views and say 'How fascinating!'... Spiritual beings having a human experience, eh? Gotta love them for trying...'heaven' knows it's hard!
I give thanks to Laura for painting my bedroom door. It is a VERY dark cream, you'll not be surprised to hear knowing how much blue there was in the tin. A creamy toffee/coffee colour actually...very pleasant actually even if not plan A! I give thanks again to Mark the stoma for being so reassuring and encouraging and making me feel like we are on a voyage of discovery together (rather than I keep falling overboard) as while Laura was shut in the bedroom with a paintbrush I had a sudden need for clean clothes. I'm grateful there was laundry on the rack in the kitchen as though it was damper than I would have preferred it was dryer than what I'd taken off!
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