Two much

I'm grateful I didn't realise yesterday how much pain I'd be in today, as I'd actually been feeling quite well and the anticipation might have spoiled that. I'm grateful I don't remember all my tender points being quite so sore before, even if it's some kind of mercy amnesia going on, so that I can marvel at the magnitude of my suffering. I'm grateful I can do this without feeling the need to announce or describe it, even on the local fibromyalgia Facebook page which seems to be precisely for that purpose...and that I can tell the difference between being grateful I'm not announcing it and actually announcing it even if you can't!

The longer I keep a gratitude blog the less I understand the social need we seem to have to share what we're not grateful for, especially when the recipient of our outpourings cannot change the situation at all...and I'm grateful I realise this kind of lack of comprehension means I probably need to socialise even less than I do now! I'm grateful I understand mostly we can't change anything but how we think about things, and due the particular limitations of the particular pains today I've had lots of time to think...

I'm grateful it was a chilly afternoon so that eventually I got dressed, and for finding leftover curry and trifle in the fridge so that eventually I got fed. I'm grateful I didn't go out or go anywhere on line where I might spend money, and I'm grateful for checking my meter reading and account balance and negotiating a small refund and reduction of charges for when I'm able to again.