Well, I've managed three or four of those short shifts and basic domestic chores but have been falling asleep in between all afternoon and evening missing a whole chunk of Ruth Watson being rather rude to landed gentry no doubt. In a way I wish I hadn't started the project but only as I don't know if I'll make it to the end. I want my flat to be delightfully marketable to sell quick and make some money for Bob. I feel like I've got so many things wrong in life but to be spending the end of it in such miserable isolation feels a very harsh punishment sometimes... Using the energy I have left to try to be useful is the only right path for someone with so few options I'm sure, so I'll carry on as long as I can. And as I hardly ever hear from him, and the executors have dropped out of touch as well, I must get off my bum and get my funeral sorted to save them the trouble of that too.
When I woke up from my last nap I gave up and came to bed. I'm very sad and low in spirits tonight (obviously - sorry!) It's hard to feel grateful for anything sometimes except that I don't have to try much longer. I've resolved not to bother any more rellies, it's bit thoughtless to put the poor souls on the spot. But I'll make a list of contacts for Bob in case he wants to some time.
(Lynn, just read your comment...I miss loads of people I hardly knew. Story of my bleeping life!)
I'm grateful that I've tried to be kind anyway...I feel better for it even if not always successful.
Hugs Angel - very big hugs for you tonight.
ReplyDeleteSleep well and hopefully wake feeling a little better tomorrow
'after every rainfall must come a rainbow'....
xxxx
I've just popped over from Carole's blog to offer a hug to you. Having read some of your blog (which is beautifully written by the way) it sounds like you could do with one - real or virtual - it doesn't really matter does it? Just know that someone out there who you've never met is thinking about you...
ReplyDeleteLove, Shents x
Hi Angel, Like shents, popped in from Carole's blog. Available to give hugs.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you, with agreat big snuggly huggly!
Carol
Thinking of you so much right now, I can't possibly know how your feeling, would be wrong for me to even try, but with all these hugs being sent your way I hope it brings a little comfort,
ReplyDeleteHugs Lynn x
Hi Angel
ReplyDeleteMassive virtual hug from me.
Really hope you feel a bit better today.
Mimi
Xxxxx
Hi Angel,
ReplyDeleteJust popping over to give you a great big fat cyber hug <<>> There guaranteed to make you feel better. Just checking in on another cyber bud who said you were in need of a hug....something we all do when one in our community sounds like they need one....
By the way my name is Tony....I have inoperable (terminal some say but I find that word so sort of 'the end') If you fancy a read have a look at my blog...it makes long read but may be worth it....let me know?
http://tonysonghurst.blogspot.com/
Hi Angel,
ReplyDeleteCarole has made me aware of your blog.
A very very big and warm virtual hug from me. Just know there are more people thinking of you than you may think.
Much love
Lamia xx