Mind(less) games

Some days it's hard to get a spring in my emotional step let alone my physical one! It is consummately pointless to miss people who were clearly not friends but emotions are not logical and for so many years I associated their company with fun times and closeness albeit illusary or one-sided.

And for times in my previous life when I was more alone than I wanted to be or dealing with difficult emotions there were playing my guitar, long hot baths or long hilly walks, sloughing off the doldrums by swimming or the primal pleasure of threading beads...I miss them too!

Days like these I'm glad for thought numbing games on my laptop or phone - a temporary labotomy. I'm grateful for the Tesco delivery service - good things to eat brought up all those stairs and right into my flat and usually by someone with a cheery word or two. And I'm grateful for sunny hot weather, all the tourists will be so pleased and all the tradespeople who feed their needs...